Off to stay with mum and dad tomorrow, Spain on Thursday. I’ve had sleepless nights over this holiday and all the other things we are doing at the moment. When Rose was first born I slept really well, in between night feeds. Since she’s been sleeping all night I have been waking at 3am like I did when I was pregnant. Maybe it’s because with a newborn you are living almost entirely in the moment, getting from one hour to the next and no time for thinking. Once day and night go back to their proper places you have to face the real world. No avoiding the future whether you plan for it or not.